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02 May 2010 @ 01:44 am
Backdated to April 16

I wonder how long we will have to be together before I stop surprising him into complete silence. Never, I hope. It's a talent of mine I'm proud of. I can shock Warren Worthington the Third into complete silence. If needed, I can make him blush like a schoolboy. On other occasions, I can stop his thought process all together.

I hope to do all three come Beltane.

I am extremely... grateful, relieved, happy... any of them may work. Never before have I been with someone who was so accepting of my religion, or it's customs. Of course, Beltane is one of the much more pleasure holidays, so it's not hard to see why he would be so interested in helping me celebrate accordingly.

One wonders how he would have reacted if I had suggested the traditional way of celebration, and if he would have been so willing if I had wanted him to chase me through a wooded area, to follow a trail of clothing until he finally managed to track me down and catch me.

Ha. Perhaps next year?

'Sounds like you had fun.' [Warren]Collapse )
15 March 2010 @ 10:43 am
His lack of trust, even with his reasoning, is hurtful. I'm not sure I believe him, when he conceded and said he believed that what I said was true. Then again, I am not quite sure I have given him reason to trust me either. I certainly have not been the most open about how it has been for me lately.

But even as drunk as I was - As we both were. - nothing would have happened. Julien is my friend, and nothing more. The idea of sex with him is just... preposterous. Amusing. Impossible.

'I don't trust /anyone/ when they're THAT drunk.' [Warren]Collapse )
Current Mood: cynicalcynical
15 March 2010 @ 10:43 am
I wish... Right now, I wish a lot of things. Mostly, I wish I could have stayed.

I should have fought more, to stay. I think I have failed as his friend.

'Warren, Sunset would very much like you in my pants.' [Julien, Warren]Collapse )
Current Mood: worriedworried
How did my karma allow me to find someone so perfect?

'Got a look at the goods and drooled, huh?' [Warren]Collapse )
24 February 2010 @ 04:50 pm
I shouldn't trust him anymore. Yet, I do. I'm angry with him, yes. Very angry. But still trusting.

I know I shouldn't be. But with his history... I can't help but wonder exactly how skewed his conscience is. Perhaps he just didn't realize that you don't hurt friends to simply prove a point. Either way, it's obvious that he thinks I shouldn't trust him. Or maybe he just doesn't want me to.

Too bad for him. He's got me as a friend, and now he'll just have to deal with me, whether he wants to or not.

'I did warn you.' [Julien]Collapse )


I shouldn't have told Jackson that Warren would be okay with it. At the moment, I was simply wanting to keep him from going into one of his self depreciating moods, and when I told him, I felt so sure... But now, that I think about it, I do have to wonder how true it is.

It's been two years since I've gone. I don't know exactly how much he's changed. I'm not even sure of how much /I've/ changed, yet. And now I fear that I've done something horrible, in both assuming that I know how Warren feels, and promising Jackson something that I possibly can't give him.

I'll have to talk to Warren about it. As silly as it sounds, I'm scared to bring it up. I'm still waiting for something to go wrong... I'm scared that things will move so fast that something will trip it all up, and make us crash. And I'm scared that this will be the cause of it.

I don't want to lose him.

'"/You/ look real happy too.' [Jackson]Collapse )